This weekend is the Wisconsin Film Festival. Emily and I did this hardcore last year. We are doing it just as doggedly this year. She has yet to find any good jobs to even apply for.

I think I finalized the brain analyses for my 2nd project; Chris even wants a behavioral factor in the study now, where I found a very encouraging correlation recently that'd make the paper great. I nearly finalized analyses for my side one (that's gone on for 2 1/2 years now), and I study for my preliminary exam essay month long ordeal thing every day at work.

I am still writing for the project and making ok progress. The end is distantly in sight.

And at the moment, life feels like a burden I want to put down and to the side. Just for a little while. Just until I get my second wind back. Just until I remember it will not always be like this. Not exactly this. Just mostly like this. Just until I forget or misremember enough. And that I am usually fine with. I am deeply not ok at this point in time, but this is just the way it is sometimes.

Time keeps going faster, I keep getting older, and yet so little happens so slowly.

There are lost ships in time I wish I knew the fate of, years and years over the horizon but still wondering.

I'm going to write a little before bed.

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